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Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 12:47 PM
the soul's desire We've probably heard this before. What good does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his soul? But why can't I have both? The world, and my soul? After all, isn't that what everyone else is hoping for? To have success in our careers, to earn income enough to fulfil our dreams of owning that house, or that car, to support our parents and raise a happy family to feed our souls? Is the world and our souls mutually exclusive? I'm not attempting to start on an academic exposition on what 'world' means, and what 'soul' means, and why they can or cannot co-exist - but the point I'm trying to drive across here is that when we desire after things that make this world go round: money, fame, glory, success, popularity and the like, the underlying assumption seems to be that our souls are at risk of being clouded over. The immediate reference, then, is that the desire of our souls must be something apart from what the world has conditioned us to desire. I don't know about you, but when I search my heart, I find that all I desire is love. Love, then, comes in many types and extents. There is the kind that only takes without giving, the kind that exists between friends... the list goes on. If I may indulge in a measure of idealism, I believe that every soul hungers for a love that gives without taking, a love that is unchanging despite the changing circumstances. I've tried finding this kind of love in many places this world offers, to no avail. But.. I think I found it in Jesus. * * * And this is why I love the holidays, because it gives me time to reflect, and just... think. Some people call it stoning, but that suggests a kind of zonked out expression which is not exactly a good one to have while we just sit down, and think about stuff. Nonetheless the first weekend of the summer was bustling with activity as I spent time with Charlene, who's about to fly to China for a 3 month long internship, and finally met up with the people from jc whom I missed dearly.   :) It was time well spent. Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 2:20 AM
summer. what a wonderful word It's been a long time since I woke up in the morning without having work creeping up at the back of my mind. It's a much, much awaited rest... I've mixed feelings about the exams and the entire semester in general - much of it flew by, at times leaving me breathless and hanging on to my faith, at times thinking if whatever I'm doing then meant anything in eternity, i.e. a finance quiz, and at times just wondering how I got through that project or assignment deadline without feeling terribly inadequate. It was all done by His grace, and I am always grateful. * * * This summer, I'll be up to a couple of things like internships, and some voluntary work. Technically, 'work' starts again in a week or so at the Attorney-General's Chambers (AGC) for four weeks. The thought of having to apply what I've learnt in school to the marketplace is pretty intimidating (especially because I'm interning for the first time), but I'm all set to learn! Before that happens, though, it's 'sabbatical week' the next week, and I am just planning to rest. R-E-S-T. What a wonderful word, too. =) Thursday, April 09, 2009 @ 11:20 PM
phew. Am i glad that the 6 hour public law exam's over. It was the most intense period I've experienced in the last dunno how many months, having to sit still and type at a speed I've never done before (and having to backspace continually cos of all the red underlines that resulted haha), and churn out analysis-es which (I fervently hope) will suffice to get me a decent grade. So do I like take-home papers? Eunice asked me the question earlier this afternoon, and my instinctive response was yah, it's alright.. having the chance to type instead of write really puts the strain on the hands aside. The luxury of doing an exam at home is a plus too, albeit the fact that I had to spend 17 dollars on a cab to chiong me to school at nearly 3pm, when the hard copy of the exam had to be in by 3.30pm. Scary!! When it was all over, I felt so exhausted, and concussed almost immediately on getting back home. Funny how a stationary activity like sitting down for a long time and squeezing one's brain for words to type can take that much energy out of a person. Exams and mugging aside, it's Easter weekend! My third since I accepted Christ, and looking back I can only wonder what might have turned out if I hadn't taken the step to acknowledge that Jesus did exist thousands of years ago, and did die on the cross, just for me. It's a marvelous piece of history to admit, and takes faith. Back then it seemed a gamble to take, acknowledging something I had no sure way of being 100% sure it was true since it took place so long ago. But now I see that it wasn't a gamble... it was the most secure way to hope, love, peace, joy and the like. * * * Summer break starts in a week, but at this point in time all I'm feeling is that I need more time to study. Too much to cover, too little time!!! My heart constricts at that thought. =/ Trust Me. Okay, I will. |