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profile At twenty and one-point-six-three/four/two (can't remember) tall, I am a girl who loves many things, and detests a few. Not very fond of setting out a whole list of 'about me's, so... just read on. :) tag archives May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 friends and credits skin by: Jane |
Thursday, April 24, 2008 @ 5:46 PM
amazing. Bible school is amazing. I've been saying this to everyone who asked me how it's like, and I think it's time to refresh my vocab haha. This week, we learnt about the Tabernacle - the place where the people before Jesus's time went to worship God. In it there were seven pieces of furniture, and every single one is so rich in symbolisms that I feel like I'm taking Literature all over again. Except these symbolisms are actually applicable to real life. How cool is that?! Learning about these shows me how powerfully wise and purposeful God is, and I'm just kind of living in awe these couple of days! Besides the jaw-dropping information that I'm receiving and digesting every morning from 845am to 1pm, there's also the daily praise and worship that starts off every class. And you know how much i love praise and worship! So to do it every morning is like a dream come true. :) I used to think that the often-talked about 'God's presence' was merely a human construct. Whenever Pastor Kong comes up to the stage and says, 'His presence is all over this place... ', I'd frown a little, thinking that emotional and psychological experiences like that could deceive us into thinking God was really there. On hindsight, my attempt to separate my emotions with His presence was unnecessary. He created us emotional beings, and so if we can cry and laugh in our relationships with people, why can't we do that in our relationship with the Creator? One of the greatest things I took back from the lessons that I've had was that God was more than a principle or a concept... He is a person, a living being. My best friend, my heavenly Father, the one who knows exactly the number of tears I cried, rejoices along with me when good things happen, and guides me in every area of my life. Because of Bible school, I'm becoming more aware of the sheer depth of His love for me. And I think that's the most amazing thing. Praise God. :) Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 12:16 PM
and my exams are over. almost! So, this is how first year in university is like. Wow. I thank God, from the bottom of my heart. To have been put in a course that I really wanted and might not have deserved, and meet friends whom I know will be there for me, and me for them, for eternity (literally! haha). I look back, and His plan weaved into place perfectly. And it is still weaving. :) True, there were times during the term I felt so tired and super ready to just chill and not do work - but the times I felt a deep sense of satisfaction from my work really makes up for it. Well I do wish I could be smarter, and think deeper, and be more inquisitive, and talk like Davinder Singh... ;) Not satisfied, but content. Now what does that mean? How can I be unsatisfied but content at the same time? Beats me, but when I typed that it felt right. Last paper this sat! It's one called Business, Govt and the Society, but it's a lot less heavier than the law papers, both on the mind and in terms of weightage, so pheew. Contract and tort were difficult, but what's done is done and I'm just trusting God for the results. Good or bad, I'm reminding myself that He is in control. So what goes through my mind is: SUMMER IS NEAR! I am over-the-moon excited!!! Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 5:40 PM
receiving grace I took a step of faith this week, to go for Bible School every morning even though the exams are happening next week. And what I got in return was beyond my greatest expectations. What I have learnt and experienced in my heart and soul is so amazing; even as I type these now I frown... because the words alone are wholly inadequate in expressing the awe and the wonder and the joy that fills me up every single day as I attend class in church every morning. One of the many poignant lessons I took back the past three days was that God is a gracious God. Imagine a person giving you a gift. But your hands are placed behind your back and you don't take that gift. So the gift remains with the person. No matter how much eye power you give it, the gift will never belong to you; you will never get the chance to open it and see the treasures hidden in it, because you didn't exercise the choice to receive it from the giver. God is like the giver, and us, the receiver. Many times we ask for an experience from God, a supernatural experience so that we can believe. But we lay there expecting God to do all the work. Our hands refuse to receive. God, being a gracious God, will never force Himself upon us. So He puts the gift there. He did His part. He is always doing His part. And sometimes all we need to do is receive. :) I am so happy! I'm reminded of a poem I once wrote and posted on this blog a long time ago: Because He first loved me. the path was blurry lined with half-baked theories my heart dwelled in creaky altars a bright countenance for dimmer reasons then You came knocking at the door will you let Me in? i wondered were You real? many worship hands lifted tears running down will you let Me in? trembling my mind resisting a gentle voice resounds I love you, My child. will you love Me too? the door opens and like a dove You flew into the room joy. joy. joy! the path is clear lined with Your truth my heart dwells in the altar of glory and finally i am filled. thank You. Boy am I glad I signed up for Bible school. :) |