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profile Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day. tag archives May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 friends and credits skin by: Jane |
Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 12:19 AM
my redeemer lives! I keep talking about Jesus (I hope it didn't irritate anyone!), but how do I know He is actually alive today? Has anyone seen His physical body? Has anyone seen Him in flesh? How can I ever be sure He's alive when I can't even see Him? Because if He's just a phony, then I must be crazy, talking to thin air in faith everyday, believing for breakthroughs in the lives of others and myself. If He's just a phony, I must be stirring my own shit, incurring the wrath of my parents when I told them I wanted to be a Christian. I was told from the beginning, that God wanted to have a relationship with me. But I rebelled against Him and broke off that relationship. And whatever I did - donating to the poor, being nice to others, treating my friends with love - couldn't restore that relationship. Because my nature is fallen. My selfish tendencies still popped up now and then, I looked upon some of my friends with enviousness and jealousy sometimes, I thought bad thoughts towards my own parents even, when they didn't give me what I wanted. And the penalty was my eventual death. But God did for me what I couldn't do, and built a bridge back to Himself by paying my death penalty when He died on the cross. If He was just a phony, all the above would be lies. My life would be a lie. Whatever I'm living for, fighting for, working for - has no meaning. What a big risk I'm taking! But when I look into my own heart as a third person and see the change, I really don't think I'm crazy. I'm not crazy, and neither are the millions who believe that Jesus is alive today. Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ 9:53 PM
3 S-es? 1 G is enough lah Surprisingly the start of the school term didn't leave me overwhelmed and feeling as if I'm running a 100km marathon. It's something to be thankful for. :) Each day passes and I feel peace; wonder if it's the peace that surpasses all understanding haha. But things are gradually piling on my plate. This term I've five modules: Leadership and Team Buidling (really fun, we're graded on how we work as a team to come up with a community service project. I've got a great team and we'll be working with kids! awesome!), Business and Society (praise God for a great project group too), Contract law (Prof Yeo never fails to amaze me with his brilliance every seminar), Tort law (once our prof took out a Bible to read a verse where the neighbour principle originated from!) and Legal Research and Writing (next week we're supposed to come up with a scenario where a lawyer is needed, can be real life or fiction - i'm thinking of something wacky, man steals 40 cents from a kid or something). School's fun! But people are leaving though. :( Alright one person to be specific - rouyin. She's leaving for Australia this coming Tuesday on scholarship to pursue her dream to fly, and I am very proud you ry! And there's Uni-Y, which is a community service club I'm excited to be part of! The people I'm about to work with as we step up this semester are an amazing bunch - all of them have a huge heart for people... and that inspires me. I've been thinking about the priorities in my life recently, because I've come to realise that the way we go on about our lives really hinges on the kind of priorities we have. Say I love the slack life, so the bed is really important to me and I make the choice to sleep on it for the whole afternoon. I made a judgement and a decision based on the values that I hold dear. A close friend of mine has this to say about her priorities - Sleep, Study, Saviour - in no order of priority. The 3 S-es in her life, she says. And I find it so adorable haha. But on a more serious note, I was thinking of my own and somehow came to a revelation, that the one priority I really only need is God, because from Him I see the purpose and the importance of loving my family and excelling in the work I have in my hands. Now I just need the confidence (how fitting, at cell group today we talked about self-esteem) and strength to put this priority into continuous action. The rest will follow. Sunday, January 06, 2008 @ 10:27 PM
whom am I here for? School's in tomorrow, and it's hard to describe how I feel right now - a mixture of excitement, curiosity, bit of apprehension, but mostly anticipation. Because one of my goals for the year is to see a marked improvement in my academic study. The past term saw me hovering between B pluses and A minuses - honestly I can't say I am very satisfied. Deep down I know I can do better, which I will this term! So what's in store for me in 2008? A year of breakthrough, or just another year to pass me by? I feel a gentle nudging telling me that this year is going to be the former, provided I focus. In the area of spiritual growth, school, in my family and with some friends - things will change this year, I can feel it in my bones. This 2008 (and the rest of my life!), I am here for Jesus. :) |