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profile Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day. tag archives May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 friends and credits skin by: Jane |
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @ 12:49 PM
please take them. If there is anything Singapore can do to stop global warming, maybe she should shut down SMU. Every 5 steps I take there is an electric source, and every 2 electric sources 1 is used by a student trying to read her notes on vista and chat on msn and go on facebook and do ten other things at the same time. And then the air con all around feels like minus 10 degrees. I think I sound whiny cos I have to prep for a seminar on legal methods, which is quite dry a subject, though the prof looks and feels very much like haoyee (you know in zhen qing, the hk actress with a mole on her forehead) and I feel very safe and secure in her seminar. And as much as I would like to commit to a cca (everyone around me seems to be going for some cca tryout) right now, I look at the things I already have to do and a red warning light flashes in my mind. Commit to one more thing and you will be like a wrinkled piece of green pepper. Now where did that metaphor come from. *shrugs* Currently stuck on one of Corrinne May's songs in her new album - the lyrics are beautiful. Fives loaves and Two Fishes A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look Thousands were listening to the stories of one man He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand The hours passed so quickly the day turned to night Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had He wasn't sure what good it'd do there were thousands to be fed But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus the kindness in His smile and the boy cried out with the trust of a child he said: "Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all to feed them all" I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small and I worry that the work I do means nothing at all But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands and every door that slams in my face I will offer up in prayer So I'll give You every breath that I have Oh Lord, You can work miracles All You need is my "Amen" Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as You will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all I hope it's not too small I trust in You. It just amazes me sometimes, how God uses the simplest things to bring me immense comfort... I felt small many times ever since school started - the workload and the expectations I have for myself and wanting to do so many things but not having enough time - and this song, simple as it sounds, has helped me understand that with my own strength I can't do much. God is the strength of my heart, and He longs and needs to be so. So take my five loaves and two fishes; You can use it all. :) Sunday, August 26, 2007 @ 9:58 PM
what a week. To rhoda: overwhelmed by the mountain of work I have! I'm not complaining. Seriously. I'm just stating a fact, that the workload is overwhelming. haha does it make sense? I love going into the seminar room, sitting down in the plushy chair and then having this whole interactive lesson where I really learn. I have to admit, class participation scares me sometimes but slowly I'm beginning to realise it is the catalyst to learning! And most of all, I've been blessed to have found wonderful friends in school. :) BUT the work really is overwhelming. 5 projects, 400 pages of readings per week (I don't think I am exaggerating), mind-boggling theories (does a contract regulate bargains or does it regulate bargaining? HUH?). Why can't we have 48 hours in a day... I want so much to catch up with close friends, to commit to a cca, to do more in church, to spend time in the living room with my family, to do this do that..  This is Eunice, a very special friend and sister in Christ whom I met on Facebook and also share the EXACT time-table with. The odds of something like that happening is 1 in 1000! We think it's God's divine humour.   Ranked 4th out of 6 teams at the SMU inter-fac dragonboat regetta! We were so happy we didn't get last we totally had to do an smu jump haha. That's the obiang shirt all of us were given at camp - we were saying we should tear off the sleeves and row, it'll be less tight around the armpits and we'd look much cooler loh. AHH okay I better get back to reading. So going to need lao hua glasses at the end of 4 years. Wednesday, August 22, 2007 @ 11:47 PM
oh my. I am overwhelmed. Monday, August 20, 2007 @ 1:22 AM
So you think you can sing? Then join this competition! Auditions 2nd sept Sunday, 1.3opm at Expo Conference Room Finals 15th sept Saturday, 1pm at Paya Lebar Singpost Organized by City Harvest Church WXY Zone. :) The first prize is a whopping $400 bucks! I registered my name. *sheepish* So if I ever get into the finals please I need support! If lah. If I don't just come anyway and watch people sing loh. Admission is free. p.s. I am going to pull people to join with me for the group category. *coughmaviscough* Sunday, August 19, 2007 @ 8:31 PM
hello school! Today officially marks the last day of the 9 month holiday. Yes there are still things I wish I would've done (like to learn how to cook a proper dinner for my family!) but I'm contented with how I spent the time doing and experiencing all sorts of crazy things like - flipping through 1/3 of the dictionary and classifying hundreds of words - creating word games for kids - going to kl with roy mav and rhod (gosh I MISS YOU people) - double rejection from nus and smu, then acceptance from smu (thank You!) - learning hiphop at oschool (I still am! Signed up for level 2 with the rest) - going for 4 camps - Emerging at Emerge'07 But perhaps the most compelling thing would be how much I've grown spiritually. I look back and I feel kind of awed by how much God has moved in my life the past 9 months. So I've been to camps, outings and convocation - do I like smu? I asked seniors the same question and they usually think for awhile, frown, scratch their chin and say yes, they do. As a freshie who's about to start school tomorrow I'd say I like the people I've met thus far, and I am really optimistic about university life. Like REALLY. :) So many things have happened, and are happening! Law Camp '07 - Advanced Freshmen Teambuilding 
When I tell people it was held at Orchid Country Club the first reaction I get is 'wah so atas lah!'. Okay it was quite. We had breakfast, tea break, lunch, coffee break, dinner - breakfast and lunch was buffet style, dinner was at a chinese restaurant. Our faci told us it was to ensure we could 'focus wholeheartedly on teambuilding' and 'not be distracted by hunger and cleanliness levels' - what a great reason, I totally agree yes I do. It was like ftb but on a whole new level. One of the 82739471 teambuilding activities was to set up a tent blindfolded and muted and before that, figure out that the thing was a tent. And then my teammates were super! At debriefs we could openly share our thoughts and laugh about stupid things like: During that tent activity mentioned, we could use our voice after a period of time. So when we could it was like a fish market! Everyone was asking 'WHOSE HAND IS THIS?' and everyone's reply to it was 'MINE! MINE!' but DUH we were blindfolded so that answer didn't really help things haha. So yeap, I had an awesome time. :) I think 3 out of the 4 camps I went to I took away something valuable. At ftb I had a taste of being in a good team, at uni-y I saw for myself the importance of community service, and at law camp I truly learnt how an effective team is formed. Convocation .jpg)  :) And amidst everything exciting I pray to stay rooted and ask myself this question, everyday. How can I bless someone today?
Thursday, August 09, 2007 @ 11:31 PM
my helper @ 1:44 PM
happy birthday this is my country this is my flag this is my future this is my life this is my family these are my friends I don't dream of working for the gahmen, or think up evil plots to rebel against them, or get all indignant and feel all oppressed when election time comes - I'm just an average Singaporean living in a HDB and loves kopi from the hawker centre downstairs. Yet today I feel especially patriotic, like every august 9th of every year. Like it or not, I grew up thinking that good grades matter a lot, I grew up watching under one roof, I grew up playing catching every evening at the playground in Bukit Batok, I grew up being told I must get a good job so that I can support my family, I grew up speaking singlish, I grew up eating hundreds of different kinds of food... I grew up here. So I love you, little red dot. :) Even though sometimes I can't wait to escape to somewhere else quieter. Too much hokkien karaoke from neighbours lah. Oh anyway let me take this chance to gush about how excited I am for school! ggggguuuuuusssshhhh. :):) It's not that I love mugging or the scent of books (okay I admit I like the scent of new books). Just that finally I'm studying something not for the sake of going into another institution - I'm studying something that will let me do something I've always dreamed of doing. That changes everything! *jumps in glee* I'm fully aware, of course, that life goals change with time and so at the same time I'm prepared to feel totally low should I realise that law is so not for me after all. What an anticlimax huh. Well if that ever happens... I hope I will have faith enough to thank God, because His plans are always greater than my own. Oh yes the song ends with - we are singapore singaporeans yay. :) Monday, August 06, 2007 @ 11:56 PM
our dance instructor: Daniel 'nuff said. (HAHA my attempt to be funkay) @ 11:53 PM
:) Whilst nus and ntu are buzzing around with school, I am sitting in my room gloating because I start only 2 weeks later! Muahaha. I figured if I wait for pictures I won't be able to blog for the next few years (seriously, that's what my grpmate with all the pics told me lah so evil) so bleah the uni-y and sports camp entry will have to be put on hold. Meanwhile... Mel and I had a great time at Sentosa today! Actually we just sat by the beach and talked for hours. :)  cheesy!  Can you tell we were trying to do a mirror image? Even I can't tell lol.  Mel is murderous! *winks*  I am pervertic! *thinks of ez-link photo* I am probably going to regret doing this, but aiya life is short. UNGLAM =    note: that is NOT my real tummy. (though it is moving towards that shape I believe hahaha)  I'll have one person less to be spastic with from end september. :( But with all my heart, I believe you will soar in Bristol, because you are in your element, doing what you believe in with all your heart. I'll save the soppy words for later. Haha thanks dear, for everything. :) |
