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profile Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day. tag archives May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 friends and credits skin by: Jane |
Friday, June 29, 2007 @ 11:22 PM
all that jazz, laughter and food I am so thankful for Nani and Shaun. Imagine getting all excited for clubbing and being all dressed up and hyped up - only to realise one of you forgot your id and couldn't get in. I WAS THAT PERSON! That was one of the most loser moments in my 18 years of existence, ranked second after getting a fishbone stuck in my throat I guess. And so not only did those two not get irritated and pissed with me, they were all nonchalant and cool about it (except they kept poking fun at me lol) and so we did three things from midnight to the morning after: 1. Listened to jazz and sipped on pussyfoot (the name of nani's mocktail, I find it hilarious!)  2. Camped overnight at macs and tried to get on supersize me by eating both supper and breakfast there on the same day.  3. Laughed like mad at anything and everything. Seriously, I never laughed so much in such a short time. This is an artistic shot of nani rolling in laughter!  So finally morning came, we embraced public transport, and I collapsed on my bed for two hours before heading out to a FREE BUFFET with counterpart at Copthorne Orchid, thanks to Dad's a la carte membership. Was actually supposed to go with Mav but she had fever - we'll have another chance for sure lah no worries! =) Two very yao-gui girls:   The sunglasses were counterpart's, thank goodness for them. I would look like a panda otherwise. Surprisingly throughout the meal I was mostly awake; food can do the most amazing things. Thanks dear for the great company! ;) And thank You for willing my holidays to be spent in the most unexpectedly pleasant ways. =) Thursday, June 28, 2007 @ 11:56 AM
of claire and memories It's so hard to capture kids on camera.  'Come on Claire look here...'  'No no no don't turn yet!!'  'Okay come look here... yessssss. Eh why you never smile!!! '  'Come come smile smi - no no no don't pl - *twang* '  ' Stay still, claire. come on. *she stays still for half a second and moves* Claire!!!' She inspires me to dye my hair black. Her hair was so black and thick and soft! As I played twinkle twinkle for her I thought I saw a kind of enchanted look on her face and almost immediately she banged on the keys trying to play something and then suddenly turned to her grandma (my aunt) and wailed. It was all quite bewildering. Bbq at simmy's last saturday! I think there were like 5 different batches of njchoir people but when we gathered to play taboo and didididiu it seemed we all belonged to the 5 year old batch. Haha but we all had fun! Whenever someone pointed to ck during didididiu I couldn't stop laughing because he'd be like on a high with his very red sunburnt face shouting ' DI DI DI DI DIU' at a rate of 5 di dis a second.  Cheej and Alvis kind of contrast each other.  Old fogeys 1  Focus, people, focus on the food.  Taboo!  Old fogeys 2  Roy and Ziyang look like they are doing some kind of a dance.  Yay! Another one coming, this time at pras's and hopefully I'll see the people I haven't seen for so long - leemin and tiffany (and co ;))and linda and joanna and yiting and louis and andrew and so many many more. I love gatherings, they recharge lovely memories. And speaking of lovely memories... (play as you read on for atmosphere but this track only lasts 30 secs gah!) 
Study smart, I know all of you can ace the As. =) And then join njchorale so we can meet up often! Haha and no, this is not a psycho-ing attempt. It must be mav's fault that I'm feeling all reminiscent now. She sent me two pictures last night:  We were hiding behind a wall at the octochalet last year cos we wanted to scare Darren and Shuqi hoho! I forgot if we managed to do it.  The scarfs stunk, by the way. AHHHH time flies. Tuesday, June 26, 2007 @ 2:22 AM
heroes I read somewhere that heroes are all the more heroic when their flaws are known. Like how Princess Diana is still very much celebrated today despite the scandals that envelop her, and maybe like how Mao Zedong's huge picture is still hanging over the humungous wall in Beijing today. I never really understood why it worked that way - aren't heroes supposed to be perfect, I used to think - but now I do. I look at my pastor, and as he shares his story about the time when he was charged in court for a parking offence I think, wow. I hear my mum nagging incessantly and at the same time she bends down with a bit of difficulty to pick up a piece of tissue and I admire her. I see bee and cindy (my cgls) share their not-so-glorious past to all of us and I am filled with a kind of special respect. And then there are the friends who openly share with me their fears and are fully aware of their flaws. And they aren't afraid to let me know... and I think I treasure them even more because of that. Perhaps it's another one of those beautiful oxymorons. Tuesday, June 19, 2007 @ 1:09 PM
girls in grey Friends come and go. It's a sad fact... and when I think of it my heart tugs. In my life people have left deep footprints; yet with time they gradually diminish. It's nobody's fault because it's everybody's fault - sometimes other people come in and the space lessens, sometimes work blots out the time for deep friendships, sometimes you just get tired and stop making the effort entirely. Yet there are some whom you just know that for a long, long time to come, their footprints will remain. It's like they were drawn with a permanent marker - granted, with time the mark fades, but you know it's still there. The elits met up last night for dinner, and as we sat around the dimly lit table at Swensen's just talking and laughing and harmlessly gossiping and poking fun at each other I just had a thought, that I love this group of people very much. We may not be the I-know-every-little-detail-about-your-life close, but close enough to know that if one falls, the other four will support her no matter what. Lousy photo resolution (think 3 megapixels) but aiya. Can see face enough lah.  My lips become like mel's when I eat bactrium, the medicine I'm allergic to.  See mav's totally contented expression haha!  EARTHQUAKE!   Mel's going to the uk to read law. Mav's going to ntu to for communication studies. Nani's going to nus to study business. Shuqi's going to ntu to read psychology. A decade down the road, where will we be? Successful, married, with kids, a swinging single, making a difference, making headlines? A psychologist, a businesswoman, a lawyer (make that two!), an advertising executive? =) I pray that we'll still be making imprints in each others' lives, even if we don't see each other in days, months, or... (I hope not!) years. Literature is beautiful, not only in the language but in the friendships I made through it... * * * Since the time the child was sent to me and I've come to love her as myself, I've had light enough to trusten by; and, now she says she'll never leave me, I think I shall trusten till I die. And so Silas in Eliot's Silas Marner says. I highlighted 'light enough to trusten by' and wrote that it is a 'statement of faith', that 'God gives us just enough; not too rich, not too poor, not too dark, not too light.' I glimpse into the life I'm living now, and I smile because it's just enough, too. Saturday, June 16, 2007 @ 10:59 PM
the good finisher I feel like I've aged 50 years. How ironic, when you're supposed to feel more hip and young with hip-hop. My body is aching in places I never knew would ache - haha but I'm aware that's a good sign! It only means those places will be toner and fitter in the fridays to come. Yippee. I woke up at 11.30am today, which is extremely rare - so rare, my mum barked at me for being such a pig. Then it was lunch and then cell, which I thought was going to be at Audrey's in Tiong Bahru and happily hopped on 961. I sat directly behind the driver because I haven't done so for a loooong time, took my phone out and realised that Joanna (my long time friend from css gosh I miss her) is going to SMU too! *beams* We talked and gushed about the probability that we might be in the same orientation group - oohhh I so cannot wait.=)) Then after we hung up I checked the venue for cell and realised I got it wrong. It was at Elii's at Queenstown. zzzzz. Don't ask me why I mixed up, maybe even my brain was aching. It was raining rabbits, I had no idea where to go to get to Elii's, and for a moment I seriously felt... like I had senile dementia. I was lost and physically impaired. And then I had a brainwave! Got down at a random stop, prayed hard for a taxi to stop for me (which did happen, whee!) and asked to go to Queenstown mrt. Okay was that really a brainwave? I had only six buckaroos in my purse and stared so hard at the meter I think it almost cracked - and thank goodness the fare was only four dollars. And so I arrived at Elii's and was even early! A round of applause please, thank you. =) Today's message was about being ' a good finisher ' in the race of life; something I totally agree with. Granted, a good start is important, but what's the point if the end is a horrible one? The jc years came back to me - I didn't really start off on a good note, but at the end was one contented girl in grey. I can say that for a lot of people around me too, who started off sluggish but ended up smiling. Father's day dinner was at Karu's curry, an Indian restaurant along Bt Timah road, and boy oh boy I never ate so much hot stuff all at one go for a long time. But it was GOOD! Mum ordered a prawn the size of my fist and I was quite scared to eat it until I saw her devouring it so yummiliciously and whoa, it was really not bad for such a hugely distorted prawn. I love curry! (Earworm of the day) Have a great weekend! @ 1:12 AM
hippy-hoppy    Started hip-hop lessons today! I want to say a lot more but I am so beat I shall let the three pictures above do the talking. =) Funfunfun. Tuesday, June 12, 2007 @ 12:34 AM
the serenity prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will; that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen. Monday, June 11, 2007 @ 11:17 PM
kids It's wonderful being around them - nothing is held back, it's just me and the kid, laughing and talking simple, the atomosphere purely fun and innocent.  Jo's niece, Jadea. Carrying her in my arms and feeling the sheer strength of her heartbeat in such a tiny body was awesome. I think I almost felt... a motherly instinct. Haha!  Charlene's cousin at Emerge, whom I had a lot of fun playing ji-ko-pa and telling lame jokes (guess where the jokes came from) with - she found all of them funny! Yeah man.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 @ 9:49 PM
singing and emerging Cantabile 2007 was a funny, albeit wonderful experience. In those few hours I couldn't help but think back a year ago when we performed as njchoir, having so much fun and zoom, we performed as njchoir alumni. And in those same few hours I felt the same excitement and thrill when we were onstage - something I haven't felt for the longest time. =)  The soppies.  Us old fogeys! Will I sing in the alumni again? I think I most definitely will - the people in it are too warm for me to resist! - unless university gets madly hectic. I have an ominous feeling that it might, but we'll see. Then if Cantab was a wonderful experience, I don't know how to describe Emerge 2007.  I wish the trophy belonged to us! But nah that was for the JC cluster which won (and which I kept cheering for though I don't really belong in it anymore hurhur).  My megacell! Do we look like we've emerged? ;) Powerful. That's how I'd describe the messages brought across throughout the entire conference! Here are some snippets: ' The values in campuses will become the values of society. The campus is like a huge international mission field!' ' Ask yourself: Can I make a difference in my world today? ' ' God loves culture. ' ' If God can use Shamgar to defeat 600 enemies with a single oxgoad, God can use you! ' ' 5 things in Shamgar's life: A powerful prayer life, audacity, going for the anointing (placing your gift under His authority), willingness, persistence. ' ' The righteous will fall 7 times - God is not looking for sinless perfection. As long as when you stumble and fall, you fall forward into His arms. ' ' Do you love Me? ' ' At the end of the day, it is not about vision, nor opportunies - it's about love. ' ' If Jesus can be raised from the dead, everything that you think has died can rise again. ' ' The just shall live by faith. ' ' We are living in the harvest time -the trumpet now belongs to us. ' I'm more mature spiritually now than I was a week ago. Living my life centred on Christ has become clearer to me now than a week ago. Loving God has become more important to me now than a week ago. *beams* On a side note, this song makes me feel like twirling around in my living room! And I can finally drown myself in GSS. =D |
