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profile At twenty and one-point-six-three/four/two (can't remember) tall, I am a girl who loves many things, and detests a few. Not very fond of setting out a whole list of 'about me's, so... just read on. :) tag archives May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 friends and credits skin by: Jane |
Sunday, October 22, 2006 @ 10:17 PM
one more month. I think the title is clear enough, but I shall make it clearer: ONE MORE MONTH TILL THEY'RE OVER! And because of that, I shall press on even more! Endure endure. Wednesday, October 18, 2006 @ 11:30 AM
opened-eyed acceptance Break time, and my hands got itchy. (what happened to inactive blog? =p ) Earlier in the morning I was taking a break from chem (I need a lot of breaks when I'm doing chem, I'm having another one now bleah) and I read something that stirred something within. It was an article from this week's Time, a guy talking about 'fundamentalism and why embracing spiritual doubt is the key to defusing the tension between East and West.' Sounds cheem right. I didn't get it at first, but as I read on I got the gist of what it was trying to argue for - that in the light of terrorism and all, religious certainty seems to take centrestage. And that can be very, very dangerous, since there will be big clashes in the 'certainties' that different religions believe in. So he went on to talk about how spiritual doubt is something we should embrace. '...doubt is not a threat. If we have never doubted, how can we say we have really believed? True belief is not about blind submission. It is about open-eyed acceptance, and acceptance requires persistent distance from the truth, and that distance is doubt. Doubt, in other words, can feed faith, rather than destroy it. And it forces us, even while believing, to recognise our fundamental duty with respect to God's truth: humility. We do not know. Which is why we believe.' That paragraph alone had my hairs standing on an end, and this rigid stone structure in my head started to form cracks ...and it collapsed into bits and pieces. From the moment I was saved till this morning I saw spiritual doubt as something that was seriously wrong and inadvisable to have, and everytime I found myself doubting God I got really worried. Was I a still a worthy Christian? Will God blame me...? So I tried to clear my doubts by reasoning them out, which worked at times. Then there were times when they didn't work. But now, my perspective has taken a one-eighty turn. Of course my reasoning didn't always work. Faith, mostly, goes without reason. Spiritual doubt, then, is something inherently natural in the walk of faith. This sense of release is...huge. Hallelujah. Sunday, October 15, 2006 @ 9:36 PM
only temporary *attempt at hypnosis* This is only temporary. Only temporary. Only. Temporary. RAH! Okay I think my senses are a bit out of place. I'm beginning to see why Ms Teo said this period's gonna be the most memorable one in our lives. Maybe let me add one more word before that. Painfully memorable? lakjdfshakljfhlkajhfda. I press on. p.s. Blog's gonna be more inactive than usual! p.s.s Farewell ceremony tomorrow. I have mixed feelings...It's not a great time to have a farewell, you know, at this point when you're at the most major period of your life. bleah. More retrospection, but only after the 'A's! Sunday, October 01, 2006 @ 9:36 PM
kaleidoscope Too lazy to figure out html, so I got a template from the supposedly new and funkier 'beta blogger'. Okay in no way is this template funky, but it's new to me, so who cares!=p I retitled the blog kaleidoscope, because I think putting your eye in its hole and looking at the images is such a fun thing to do. And not to mention the images are so pretty! Then you ask: eh. but your blog all white where got look like kaleidoscope. You very funny leh. Uh. I'm sorry. Maybe after the 'A's I'll do up a kaleidoscopic template? That'll be... about 2 months away. GOSH it scares me and excites me at the same time. Anyway service today was especially great, and I want to share this quote which pastor mentioned: 'People don't care how much you know until they know how much you care. ' So true. Alright back to mugging! |