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Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day.


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skin by: Jane
Friday, September 29, 2006 @ 9:49 AM
thankful

I could almost touch the tension in the air at home when Gurmit was about to reveal to millions of viewers the winner of Singapore Idol. Kinda hilarious when you consider the gross inversion of order in my family: my parents were rooted in their seats in front of the telly (for hours already), my sis was walking across the living room to the study and nonchalantly paused for awhile, I was at the dining table reading Life! and paused to look up momentarily. Hip parents? *frowns worridly* I... don't know about that. haha.


They're big fans of Jonathan, though. Week after week as I sit in the study poring over the ten year series on wednesday nights I hear periodic clapping and intense discussions over the standard of the contestants' performances, and the repeated gushing over Jonathan's singing. Sometimes they ask for my opinion on his performance, and tempted as I am to assert my biased opinion, I smile weakly and say that he's pretty good.


So it was kinda painful when the results were announced. Try as they might to conceal their disappointment, I could still feel it. They voted for Jonathan, for goodness sake! Even Dad, the once anti-voting-through-phone-cos-must-pay-money type, called and voted. Which goes to show that they really really liked him. Thankfully Dick and Ken said he still has the potential to become a regional star. Because the look on my parents' faces changed from disppointment to some sign of hope.


So much for the final results show. This week was the week I received some of my prelim results (except for lit, which takes ages to come back) too. I'm glad the hard work paid off for Math and Physics, but Chemistry was a disappointment. In a oddly similar way I got to experience the kind of disappointment my parents faced after the results for Idol was announced - the disppointment stemming from sacrifices which had gone to waste.


But I shan't worry! The Dick and Ken in my heart tells me that I still have the potential to do well for the irritating subject characterised by distorted lollipops in a nightmare. =D


Thank You. For being with me every step of the way, for giving me strength, and for rewarding me. Hallelujah!



Saturday, September 23, 2006 @ 12:15 AM

It's OVER! *maniac laughter*
Oh illusions are so great a way from escaping unpleasant reality.
These two days are going to be pure pure illusion.
But i don't care!
rest is for a longer, more ardous battle. I agree.
I'm kicking off my socks for now! wheeeeeeeeeeee!



Tuesday, September 19, 2006 @ 4:11 PM
making light

' How were your prelims? '


How am I supposed to answer? It isn't over yet, but this bleary picture comes to view: it's not that picturesque a picture after all. It's the all too familiar feeling of self-reproach, having committed silly silly silly mistakes in the paper which you would probably have kicked yourself on the head for if not for the immense pain in the hamstring.


How ironic that the answer I can best come up with is an 'okay', when the very word pales so much in comparison to the feelings tied to every completed exam.


Am I being very pessimistic here? Haha if I am, I don't really intend to be. I guess it's part of nature to look back and wish you could have realised and done things differently. Then maybe the consequences would be more...desirable. Then again, if everything were done according to what we all desire, life in itself would be less fulfilling wouldn't it?


Anyhow. Studying lit these few days (especially these few days when the burden of two three-hour papers sits squarely on your shoulders) has made me less dull a person (I think lah), what with formulas and numbers filling every inch of the brain before. Now it's more of real issues at the heart of every play, poetry or prose passage.


For example. I never used to relate Lear to anything more than a good lit text. But as I pore through its pages and read stuff online, I can't help but revere its sheer gravity more and more. If Shakespeare was still alive I might even go to his book signing session at Kinokuniya or something.


Here's a modern tragedy you can attempt to write: Fifty thousand or so eighteen year olds buried in stacks of notes at home, at macdonald's, at the airport, oblivious to whatever happiness or sorrow that is going on outside their little world of crammed knowledge for the coming two months.


O! All's cheerless, dark and deadly at the 'A' Levels. Bleargh.



Thursday, September 14, 2006 @ 7:41 PM
cheapie thrillies

Oh yesyesyes! *jumps up and down* NO MORE CHEMISTRY. No more silicon and iron oxides, no more E values, no more squiggly energy cycles, no more structures which look like distorted lollipops in a nightmare. no more no more!!!!!!


No more of all of that for... a week or so?


Hoho. I'm drowning in the river of cheap thrills, aren't I.


Okay back to leber- oops I mean herbert! My favourite man of the week. ciao!=D



Friday, September 08, 2006 @ 1:05 PM
happy birthday joanne!

Went to her house to 'surprise' her yesterday - and the surprise failed. Again! I swear there's something wrong with us and surprises.


Nonetheless we had fun! Played with moomoo her maltese which is so adorable and tame and cute I wanted to bring him home. And moomoo's such an adorable name!


moomoo.moomoomoomoo.


Rouyin had a tough time though. She has a phobia for cats and dogs, and the sight of them makes her scream. Really scream.


So you can imagine how many screams went out in the house yesterday! I cannot imagine what will happen if her husband's a dog or cat lover.


Ry: 'If he is, he wouldn't be my husband lah. '


True. okay off i go!



Sunday, September 03, 2006 @ 9:01 PM

I'm actually online to google 'finding half life of a reaction through partial pressures.'


WHAT ARE THE PRELIMS DOING TO ME??!!


sigh. strive on everyone!