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Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day.


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skin by: Jane
Saturday, February 25, 2006 @ 11:58 PM
living for singing.

The njchoir had a performance as guest choir for ntu's Cantemus today! Though my feet hurt like crazy now and my voice kinda hovers between a bass's and an alto's due to some extent of overusage of the vocal cords, (not just from singing, but from laughing too!) I'm feeling this ridiculous sense of light-heartedness.


I don't know. Maybe it was Janger. It seemed we sang it pretty well, especially at its most intense. Maybe it was the whole process. Rehearsing and singing and waiting and supper-ing and travelling on the mrt laughing. hahaha.


The performance being at vch, it brought a flood of memories for myself. Not just from the concerts I've watched there, but most distinctively the biannual css choir concert (c'est la vie we call it) I've had in my 4 years in blue. As I walked up the stairway, through the narrow parquet flooring and out onto the stage, this fleeting anticipation and excitement that stemmed from the staging of our concert and musical then seemed to relive itself. The whole hall brought familiarity and comfort in a way that no other concert hall could bring. Bring me to any concert at vch, and I'll be happy. =D


Let me be ambiguous for a second. Why do things always turn out the way you don't want them to? Life is hard, agree?



Tuesday, February 21, 2006 @ 11:07 PM
11.22pm

I am sure that my blogblock is cleared. yay!


hahaha I realised there ain't such thing as a blogblock after all. I suppose it's all psychological, because if I really wanted to put in an entry I would have done so. A day-to-night account of what I did on a Monday - that's an entry in itself what. =p


But this sort of perfectionist streak in me screams for good things, good readable things to blog about. Which.. doesn't come very often for myself.


Anyway. I want to say something. About school.


Oddly speaking, I think I'm enjoying school. Because of the intensity of the lessons, (sth to do with the affinity between myself and busy-ness!) the people I eat lunch with, the smiles I gather and give, the greater depth to which friendships are headed towards - yes, even though I spend quite some time fretting over the vomit-inducing organic chemistry topics and how the hell I am going to finish revising them in time for the common test.


Gah! I'll continue with this if I find the inspiration. It's sleep for now.



Saturday, February 18, 2006 @ 11:44 PM

I think I'm facing this huge, massive blog-block. When I face the empty white box for me to 'create a post', my mind registers.. nothing to blog about.


Actually I doubt I have nothing to blog about. It's the feel to it, if you catch my drift. Sometimes there are so many things to say that you don't know where to start.


Like.. now.


BLEAH.



Tuesday, February 14, 2006 @ 12:00 AM
happy valentine's!

Here's wishing everyone a day full of love, hugs, smiles and joy. You're loved even if you think you're not. =)



Saturday, February 04, 2006 @ 11:57 PM
*cheers*

Went for the chingay with mavis nani khairi ernie and yana! We had a ball of a time screaming our lungs out for fadhli and dinie, who performed fabulously, and the rest of the very pretty and handsome performers in their elaborate costumes.


This group of drummers came dancing and prancing around, very expertly creating this rhythm - and to our hugest surprise the curtain on a float opened to reveal yongqiang (fellow council mate) who looked darned cool drumming!


And just as we were about to roar his name ('AHH! Y-----), the curtain closed. blah.


hahaha had lotsa fun today anyhow. Chingay rocks! ;)



Friday, February 03, 2006 @ 10:53 PM
fridays

I know. It's just a day and all, and I really shouldn't do this - yeah it's kinda unnecessary too...


It's a FRIDAY! yayi'mfriggin'happybecauseidon'thavetowakeupat6thenextmorninghaha!


Bleargh. I can't blame myself - For the past three days in school I've looked like a cross between a panda and a zombie. The ' Are you okay? You look tired. '-s serves as sufficient evidence.


Why do I sound suspiciously GP-ish?


Naniever. (nani's my pal and nani in jap means 'what'!) Speaking of GP, essays drove me crazy this week. In three days I churned out a grand total of two essays, and the result is the severe lack of sleep plus the constant fretting over how the essays will turn out.


Which probably explains the panda-zombie kind of aura I had throughout the week. =(


But choir today was enjoyable, as always. Amongst the many pep talks meted to the juniors, Miss Lim's (our conductress) words today struck me the most. Try to accept things with an open heart. Give choir more time for yourself to adapt. It will be alright. I couldn't agree more. In the first few weeks in choir last year I resented almost everything - the late hours, the pressure from SYF, the unfamiliarity. But now, resentment is the last thing I would feel about the choir. Every single member has a certain uniqueness about him or her - yeah, even pras. (if you're reading this don't take offence! you're unique because you crack me up, haha!) There's this subtle feeling of comfort going on whenever I sing with the choir, and I love it.


Wouldn't exchange my place in the choir for anything else.


You can go awww, i don't care. =p


It's 12 am now - the elits and kangwei are officially having an online conversation just for kicks. I have this ominous feeling that half an hour into the conversation I'll lie flat snoring on my keyboard.


I'm a pig, I admit it! >7 hours of sleep, if not become panda-zombie. HAHA. ciao for now!