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Walking by faith is something easy to say, but hard to do especially when things don't go as planned. But we try all the same, and I'm no exception. This blog is in some ways cathartic, in others a means for me to pen my thoughts and struggles as I walk this life and learn to trust God more with each passing day.


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skin by: Jane
Sunday, June 27, 2004 @ 11:21 AM
The last day

Last day??!! Sure or not??!!

Yes I'm absolutely sure that today's the last day of the June holidays!!!!!

Oh holy matrimony!!!!

Oh my guan yin!!!!

Oh my goodness!!!!!

Oh my gawd!!!!!!

Oh I am so gonna be in deep shit 'cos I have one more physics paper uncompleted!!!!

Enough of my craziness. It's time to get serious teng xiaohui. You have to start your engine as from tomorrow! No more blogging almost every day, no more tv marathon, and certainly NO MORE EATING JUNK!!

Yes, me.

As from tomorrow, I promise I'll sit in my study the moment I reach home and start revision.

And I can only watch one tv programme/go online for an hour per day. (The temptation's too great and I need a break don't I?)

And I will put my head on my pillow at 10.30pm sharp.

But for now...

I'll sit back and relax for the rest of the day. ;)

It's a Sunday!! Come on...

***

Time sure passes like a Ferrari going 200km/h eh?

ZOOOOOOM!!!

And half a year has just whizzed past.

It's time to get sentimental now... I'll miss so many things after I graduate from Commonwealth!! Just to name a few:




@ 11:20 AM


Okay this is a bit of a digression... but yup I'll miss these people..



@ 11:19 AM


The wonderful members of the soprano section!! Missing them already...



@ 11:17 AM


My initial section... the mighty altos!! =D Will miss this...



@ 11:14 AM


Did I mention this?



@ 11:11 AM


And my wonderful class as well...



@ 11:11 AM


Plus this... the greatest musical ever! eeyer haolian but I don't care. ;)



@ 11:10 AM


And my bestest choir pals: from left myself, cuijing and yinsing and the star... mr toh!! haha..



@ 11:09 AM


And lastly, I'll miss this terribly...



Oh and how could I forget? I'd miss these two and linhui (her pix unavailable; if you want refer to my class pix; she's standing 2nd ro---- ah forget it)a lot as well... hopefully we'll be in the same school next year? *shrug*

I'm fast reaching the end of a chapter in my life. Whether the ending's a happy or a sad one, it's entirely up to me. For I'm the author of my own life.

So fellow sec4s...

CHHHHIOOOOOOONG ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S.most pictures courtesy of hsienlee
P.S.S Chiong means to charge forward.




Saturday, June 26, 2004 @ 1:49 PM
half year resolutions and a bitchy saleslady

Half-year resolutions and a bitchy saleslady

Half a year has passed and a new half has just begun!! (as if me and you care right)

So...in consideration of the fact that there are only 2 months left to the bloody prelims and 4++ months to the friggin' Os, I have come up with a list of half-year resolutions.

If you're curious, I didn't really fufill my new year resolutions. Sigh.

Numero uno: Never, ever dream in class ever. If it ever happens, I shall not go for recess.

Oh my. That's a big sacrifice.

Two: Don't yak or gossip in class when the teacher is not around. At least try not to. Do work instead!

There. I guess I can stick to these two. Nono, I MUST.

Oh!! Have you heard of this rhyme? It goes like this:

I MUST, I MUST, I MUST increase my BUST.

It is believed that if you repeat this 10 times before you go to sleep, those two bumps will INCREASE!!!!

If for a fraction of a second, you actually took my word, you must be really desperate.

Okay I'm digressing.

***

Anyway... yesterday I went shopping for a dress!! For the first 3 hours Alisha and myself went into every boutique and squeezed our exercise-deprived bodies into dresses meant for the upcoming annual CSSSC dinner.

It was fun!! Both of us actually felt like proper girls that afternoon. *giggle*

In the last shop we went into before we took a break, I did something stupid.

I spotted this black dress which looked pretty good. In the front was this criss-cross thingamajig which I must put over my head and ta-da! The dress will be worn.

The bloody problem was, I couldn't figure it out.

So I tried the dress on the first time and opened the dressing room door to check it out in the mirror. I glanced at the saleslady. She glared at me like I was some alien from planet Saturn.

"You're wearing it wrongly."

Okay okay!! No need to glare. I went in again, and tried it another way. It looked okay, so I went out again.

"Girl, you're wrong again." *glareglareglare*

Bloody hell. I changed into my casual cothings and returned the dress to her. Hello?? I thought salespeople were supposed to be nice??

It turned out when Alisha came out to look at herself in the mirror, the same saleslady actually came up to her and said sarcastically,

"You can wear meh?"

My goodness!! Talk about being rude!!

Then the both of us stomped out of the store.

After some careful consideration we went in again and once more tried the dresses for joanna and cj to comment; they arrived later.

Thank god I got it right!

Oddly, that bitchy saleslady was much nicer when we went in the second time. Perhaps her boss arrived. Or maybe she had pms or something. What the heck.

And...both Alisha and myself bought the dresses! Turned out they were the best among the rest. It's a pity 'cos I think that shop would attract more customers if not for that saleslady.

Oooh!! I can't wait for the investiture to arrive! Then the dinner too!

But... it'll feel weird without the tie. Hai...

hEart bRokeN. meMorIes foReveR, frIendS eteRnalLy.






Wednesday, June 23, 2004 @ 7:03 PM
feet!!

If you were to ask me which part of my body I would most want to change, I would reply within the next 0.0000000001 second:

MY FEET!!!!

They are so bloody long, people would mistake my shoes for those clown's shoes when I walk.

See this picture? My feet are the same size as the ones in the middle.

Ha. ha. ha. And I ain't kidding!!!

~

I can't believe school is starting in, like, 4 days??!!!!!!!! =/  Posted by Hello




Tuesday, June 22, 2004 @ 6:36 PM
Reminscing

Reminiscing

Having nothing to blog about my present life, I shall once again yak about my past. Not that it was very interesting, but sometimes when I look back there were actually some incidents that are pretty hilarious. Here goes again!!

Pledge taking is no joke.

So is hugging.

But let me just start with the former. I shudder to think of that fateful morning...

And so I was in the school's General Office. I stuck out my index finger and very carefully, pressed the red button to speak into the PA system. It was my second time reciting the pledge for the morning assembly and boy, did it suck.

"We, the citizens of Singapore
pledge ourselves as one united people
regardless of race, language or religion

s-so as to ach -------- "

"Eh!!! Eh!!!
t-to b-build a d-democratic society
so as to achieve
happiness, prosperity and progress for our nation.
"

Oh, man.

Ohhh, mannnn.

And you know what? Mrs. Terrence (Discipline mistress) was directly behind me when I fumbled over the pledge. 0_0

Until now I wonder how the heck I managed to escape unscathed.

Then I headed back to class gingerly, praying fervently that noone would recognize that voice in the PA system. Step by step...

So far, so good. I climbed up the stairs, looking down as I walked ----

"XIAOHUI!!!! JUST NOW YOU SAID THE PLEDGE RIGHT??? MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!"

Sigh. Plan failed.

~

Now we talk about the latter.

I gotta rewind 10 years back! I was in a cruise with my family and many of my relatives.

Then some of us were chilling out on the deck of the ship. I was looking all around for my dad, and spotted him in the blue shirt.

I ran happily towards him.

"Daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Then I hugged him from behind. Very tightly.

Eh, waaaiiit a minute.

Why daddy so fat hah? Why he smell funny too?

"Ummm... girl, I am not your daddy."

I looked up. Indeed.

At that moment I was so stunned that I hugged the wrong dad that I simply walked back to where my relatives were without a word.

Then my aunt, who witnessed what I just did, laughed. I thought a hyena was on board.

"Aiyo!!! You hugged the wrong daddy ah!!!! AHAHAHAHAHA!!! AHAAHAHAHAH!!!"

Then my dad arrived.

"Hi!!"

I looked at him, and wailed. I didn't dare to touch him. What if he was a FAKE?!!?!!!!

Sigh. How I sympathise with my poor 5 year old self then.

Humiliations and embarrassments. Just part and parcel of life.

Especially mine.




Sunday, June 20, 2004 @ 11:30 AM
Coco power ranger!!

Yesterday I was doing my duty as an usher for the Alumni Band Concert held in the Singapore Conference Hall. Well... maybe not usher, but a door-opener? Somehow I ended up opening doors for the concert-goers.

"Hi, good evening!"

Then I'd smile at them ever so sweetly.

Open, close, open, close... by the end of it all my arms were aching! But it was fun, in a weird sort of way.

We (councillors) watched the first half of the concert, then during the intermission we left for Lau Pa Sat, where the fun started...

Let's see.. we ordered:fries, fried chicken, popiah, stingray, icekacang, cheese prata... etc. It was probably the best supper I've ever had!!! Yummy....

Then during the feast we tried to scoop icekacang with chopsticks. It was hilarious, really; the sight of a few hungry beings trying desperately to get ice into their mouths!! And some of us fought over fries with chopsticks!! A bit lame, but funny nonetheless!

Then to our surprise, a Caucasian came to our table and asked if she could take our picture. Of course we agreed!! ;) How I wish I could get that picture... Ah, well.

After a few hundred burps from us we headed home on the mrt. Standing around a single pole we enganged in a conversation of our favourite childhood tv shows. Power Rangers??! It was hard to believe; so many of us loved that show!!! And we would pretend to be the different rangers and act as if we had superpowers, just like them ---

And noone would want to be the monster.

Hahaha...*contented sigh* I really enjoyed myself last night.




Saturday, June 19, 2004 @ 9:54 AM
too short!!!!

Darn!!

I had my hair cropped really short.

What have I done??!!!!!!!

It's very cooling to have really short hair when the weather's bloody hot, but...

I look like a 4 year old kid now.

Bloody hell.


Ya, I wish... =/ Posted by Hello




Wednesday, June 16, 2004 @ 6:55 PM
bored

Nothing much happened these past few days. So I shall talk about the nitty gritties in my life... here goes!

You know the new movie starring Mark Lee, Christopher Lee and Chen Liping? The one about 4D?

THE COMMERCIAL IS BLOODY IRRITATING!!

"BAI LIU LI BAI!!! HUI BU HUI KAI!!!!" *shiver*

I came across this complaint in another blogger's blog and I agreed with it so much, I decided to put it in here as well.

Well if it is shown once, it isn't that bad. But the worse thing is, they play it over and over and over again in MRT stations, it gets so bloody irritating that I almost wanted to throw myself into the railway tracks.

ArGh. Stupid commercial.

Another one.I went to this shopping centre a few days ago, and while strolling around in the undies department, I heard this freakingly seductive voice behind me.

(was in chinese) "Hubby, can you puh-leese help me choose a bra?"

My mother sniggered. I turned around and to my horror I saw this couple, in their 40-50s, staring at each other as if they were alone in a hotel room.

You have no idea how grossed out I felt!!! My goodness.

And then the lady pulled the man into the dressing room so explicitly for all to see. I mean, shouldn't one be more discreet when you want another person to follow you into a dressing room??!!!

At that moment my eyes were practically bulging out from their sockets. And my mother was laughing like crazy. The salelady was giggling like a kid too.

Damn it was funny.




Tuesday, June 15, 2004 @ 7:10 PM
dance

I know that somewhere in the future, I'd miss what I have now terribly.

July 17th's the investiture --- I'd be stepping down --- but it's only now that I'm starting to get really close with my councillor pals. Why like that??!!

Sigh. We can't have the best of everything, can we?

I'd better treasure my last 3-4 weeks as a councillor.

alishacuijingjoannaenciadijeremybenjamin
cherylsamanthafadhilahashrithaa
winstonyanwenliyingmaymaungthu
roslynnajibulsharir

=(




Monday, June 14, 2004 @ 7:20 PM
All yee-aa

All yee-aa

I made a promise to my sis that I would bring her to watch Harry Potter 3 today. And when I woke up this morning, it suddenly dawned upon me that I had English enrichment to attend at 12nn!!! Well I skipped it; a promise is a promise. Not to worry, I can have a make up lesson sometime later, I guess. Oops. ;)

The movie was good. I mean, it wasn't like the first one (The Sorcerer's Stone), when my mouth was practically half-open throughout the whole movie 'cos I was so amazed at how everything was portrayed --- totally as I imagined!!! Especially Hogwarts and Quidditch --- but it was not bad. A bit shocking though! Some parts had my heart pounding at an abnormally fast rate. Sheesh...

Talking about shock, when I watched Spiderman some time ago, one part was so shocking I literally jumped and overturned my plate of nachos!!! Gosh it was humiliating. Sigh.

Anyway, when watching HP today I thought about British accents.

It's pretty cool how they pronounce their words! Like "... all yee-aa" and ".. like I'll ne-vaar bee chee-eerfel agaiin". I wonder if Singlish in Singapore intruigues the angmohs as much as their accents intrigue us. Okay okay, intrigue me.

Nah, I guess not. ;)

Plus, today's outing was also my first with my sis alone, so cheerios to that!!!

Haha...yaya I know it's a bit late, but my family isn't that all liberal, you know.(my sis's 11)

Both of us did some shopping too; I bought a watch!! It was a steal at only 9 bucks. And she bought a pencil case. So we're all happy!!

Yup, I enjoyed myself today. Hope you people enjoyed ur day too!! =D




Saturday, June 12, 2004 @ 6:23 PM
Gossips

I've been pretty busy this week preparing for the upcoming 6th student council investiture. Today we did our banner, and we had quite a number of sec2s who joined us.

Then I made an amazing discovery. I totally had no idea that my fellow juniors were so capable at gossiping!!! They were so good at it, I got interested.

But there were disadvantages.

Their volumes could compete with those of the aunties shouting for meat and veggies in the maket.

"NONONONO!!!! He LIKES her!! You know ah, that guy and this girl, this girl and that guy.... YA YA YA!!!!" *squeals of laughter*

But I'd have to say... it was funny. ;)

Hungry for some gossip as well -- we got influenced! -- we (sec4s) huddled around during breaktime and had a session of our own. It was very interesting. *wink*

The banner's already completed. Wanna see how it looks like?

Nah, I don't have a picture. You will have to come to our investiture and see it for yourself!!! The time and date will be revealed, soon...

For now, it's my favourite time of the day... DINNERTIME!!!!!!!




Friday, June 11, 2004 @ 8:00 PM
A day to remember

A day to remember

I've counted; there are approximately 16 days left till school starts. And that is NOT a good sign. Uh-uh. Not good at all. Because that means the 'O's are nearing but my revision is only 1/8th complete and I haven't enjoyed enough and there's still a mountain of homework for me to complete!!!!! *gasping for breath* =/

* * *

Today I awoke very unwillingly at 6am, buzzed around the house like a mad bee and managed to step into the school compound at 7.05am. The councillors did the souvenirs for the investiture and at 10am, everything commenced.

CuiJing and myself ran toward the Music room. Once again, a wave of nostalgia passed over me. I think it happened for the gazillionth time.

Shoes, haphazardly placed around the perimeter of the corridor.

The familiar "Eng@CSS" sign.

The unmistakable grey carpeting.

Gosh the memories were teeming in my head; all of them flashing before my eyes as I made my way to the room. Then I swung the blueish door open ----

Wooden walls, another blueish door 5m away that led to the storeroom and more of that unmistakable grey carpet. More of the smell of worn socks too. Urgh.

Then I swerved to my right.

There he was --- surrounded by countless fans wanting his signature, asking for his address and his number --- why is it so familiar?

Well, today's the day. Mr Terence Toh, asst. conductor for the commonwealth choir, would be leaving. In fact, as I type he should be on a plane to Australia.

You bet I felt a sense of deja vu. My years in secondary school have been lined with farewells; to teachers, to fellow classmates, seniors and juniors --- they never end. It's painful, but inevitable, I guess.

A touching farewell speech, a song and then goodbye. They're all the same.

But there are always new beginnings.

At about 1230 a few of us met up with Mr Reuben Lai, another conductor who left the css choir last December.

We lunched together (yummy...i had chai taw kuey(carrot cake) plus minced meat noodle --i was so darned hungry!!) and then he treated us to coffee. It was great. We caught up with the old times; laughed and joked and crapped about everything --- to talk to someone that you haven't been in contact with for a long time is... I don't know, it just gives me a darned good feeling. Like talking to a long-lost pal. Which is kinda true in a way. ;)

Then we waved our goodbyes once more and he left.


Instructors. Teachers. Mentors. They mould our future. They really do.




Thursday, June 10, 2004 @ 7:06 PM

Yesterday I went to the Singapore Conference Hall to watch Jubilate-Festival of Choirs. It was very very very very nice!! Mainly because Novo Concertante, a choral group from Phillipines, performed. ;) They were really good!! Four standing ovations okay? No joke... Haha I really enjoyed myself listening to their amazing voices.

What would a concert be without commonwealthians performing in it? Oops. Haha.. My beloved juniors performed as well; it was a pity I missed the girls' performance on Tuesday! Sigh. But nevertheless the concert last night ended on just the right note. =D

By the way did you know that the sopranos from Novo Concertante sang a high C# in one of their songs???? Like oh my goodness!!!!!!




Tuesday, June 08, 2004 @ 7:28 PM

You have to serve to lead.

This quote blows me away. Well I'm feeling really tired now; will blog more tomorrow or the day after. Ta-ta!




Sunday, June 06, 2004 @ 1:40 PM

Last night I had the weirdest dream.

I dreamt that the jc I went to was on fire.

And the jc looked exactly like my primary school.

And the weirdest thing is, people were cooking marshmallows in the fire. Huh??!! Like shouldn't you be running for your life when there's a fire???

Anyway, this dream certainly can't be compared to my first nightmare.

I dreamt that I was chased by a HUGE gorilla along the shore of an unknown beach. And my poor 7 or 8 year old self was so traumatised, sleeping was rather difficult for the next few consecutive nights. I kept thinking that a gorilla would be outside my room, and when I opened the door, it would go ROAR!!! And that would be the end of me.  Posted by Hello

Gorillas suck.




Saturday, June 05, 2004 @ 12:45 PM


Isn't he cute?? Aw...  Posted by Hello

You have absolutely no idea how busy I will be this holiday preparing for the CSSSC investiture, preparing for the 'O's, and eating. Sigh. Wishie me luck... =/




Wednesday, June 02, 2004 @ 10:14 PM
cycling's fun!!

Wheels

Went cycling yesterday. It was fun!!

I agreed to the idea in the first place coz it's been ages since my heart rate went beyond 80 beats per min. And I can feel myself getting meatier. It didn't help that I have been a pig these past few days!! Eating and sleeping and studying and eating... sigh it never ends. So I totally had to exercise!!

There are, however, some downs to cycling.

Firstly the bicycle seat was darned high. My Dad refused to lower it, for reasons I will never know... And that part of my bloody was so bloody uncomfortable!! (you know where, don't act blur). Ouch.

I have a poor sense of balance. Let's see...I almost banged onto 3 garbage bins!! Argh, the humiliation.

Eh? Then why did I think it was fun in the first place?

Well I guess the feeling of the wind caressing my face overwrote all the bad stuff cycling can cause. I felt like Rose in Titanic, spreading her arms wide on the deck of the gigantic ship... minus the guy, duh. Muahaha. Nice feeling.

Then when I chanced upon a steep downslope, I felt a flutter of excitement.

"Wooooooo!!!!" I shouted like a mad red Indian.

Then I let the bicycle have a life of its own...I couldn't help but grin like an ecstatic 7-year-old!! Nice feeling too. Except for the fact that I got bewildered stares from passer-bys. Whoops.

Also, I managed to burn those fats of mine. Yesterday.

But you know what???!!!! Just now I ate a whole truckful of French fries for dinner!!!!!! Plus some beef steak. Oh, the horror!! The horror!!!

Looks like my cycling trip yesterday made no difference to my BMI (Body Mass Index). Bah. I feel so guilty now. Why did I ever touch those bloody yellow long stuff?? Gosh.

But hell they smelt really really good... *burp* Muahaha. Sigh. I guess I can't escape from good food, no matter how hard I try. Shucks.

***

I have just wasted this evening watching tv and, um, eating. Talk about studying hard for the 'O's. My guilt is now doubled!! The horror... I will study tomorrow. Oh yes I will. Don't try to stop me!!! I will study. I will study. I will study. I will. I will watc--study. I will study. YES I WILL.




@ 5:12 PM

My sis is one helluva brat.



@ 3:10 PM

Woohoo!!!


Guess what? Guess what?!


It's... *drumroll*


Happy Vesak Day!!!


To find out what Vesak day is all about, click here.


Aha... I bet all of ya didn't know what Vesak Day meant huh? Now you know!


*** Posted by Hello

I took a glimpse at Miss Universe -- live just now. You'll never believe it --- Miss Australia won!! I think her question went like this:

"Now Miss Australia, if you had a chance to choose which time period you could live in and which gender you could be, what would they be, and why?"

*clears her throat, gives a dazzling smile* "If I had this chance, I would choose to live in the time period now and be a woman, because women these days have a lot of say in the society."

Of course that wasn't her exact answer, but it was something like that.

An hour before that scene on tv, the hosts were announcing the top 15 contestants. As always, I had this tiny hope that maybe, just maybe, this would take place...

(my screen blurs...to dreamland...)

"And now...the final contestant to enter the top 15 of the Miss Universe pageant 2004... she is.... Miss SINGAPORE!!!!!!"

The audience gasp. Huh?? Where the hell is that??

She steps out. She walks glamorously towards the centre of the stage. She turns. She gives a winning smile. She walks again. Then...

pOoF!! She trips on her dress!!

Nonono. Erase that. Put this in: Miss Singapore entered the top 15!!! Miss Singapore entered the top 15!!! The whole of Singapore cheers. Finally!! Finally!!



Hello?? Hello?? Wake up!! Xiaohui, wake up!!!

Drats.

Sigh. You know and I know that that image is kinda unlikely. Then again, maybe, just maybe, it might happen? We still have years and years of Miss Universe to tune in to anyway!

Have fun today! lalala~




Tuesday, June 01, 2004 @ 6:39 PM
freedom? Like real.

Conflicts cannot survive without you.
- The Zen of Zelda

In the light of all the fighting that's happening around the world as I type, I thought that maybe this quote would set us --- the ones lucky enough to live in peace --- thinking. Maybe we shouldn't complain about the light being too dim. Maybe we shouldn't whine too much when our parents don't get us what we want. Maybe we should just sit back and reflect. Aren't we living a life that is far better than the others living in war-torn areas?

As I read countless articles about the many wars happening in this world and stare in horror at many pictures of the mutilated and the wounded, I wonder.

My fellow counterparts --- humans --- are actually capable of such casual, even gleeful, atrocity.

What has the world turned into? One of hatred. One that cares only about power and money.It's sad. I look around me: the newspapers, the television --- and all I see are bombs landing in so many places and blasting innocent people off to kingdom come.

Then I see mothers weeping, fathers swearing that they'd take revenge, and soldiers humiliating prisoners. That's funny. What happened to the "freedom" that was once promised? The 7-letter word that everyone wants but only a few will get --- they offered it, but was it ever given? Freedom. Ya, right.

***

Oops. That was my other half speaking. Two parts make me: The 'deep' half --- always thinking, always wondering, and the... the.. aiya the other half --- never thinking, never wondering. Just pure action and adventure.

You must be thinking how lame I can get sometimes.

Ya la ya la I had nothing to type okay? My day went pretty normally and normal for me is boring. So without anything from my other half to share, I just had to dig out something from my 'deep' half and put it here. But jokes aside, those are true-blue feelings of mine. So there!






Okay I don't have anything to say anymore.








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